Getting Anxious

So yesterday I went to my doctor appt. and we talked about a day to get induced. We have decided to plan for Oct. 27. Yay! I have been soooo uncomfortable.  I'm feeling happy, excited, nervous, and sad. Sad ,because Dee can't be here to see our baby boy. Overall I'm VERY excited though. Last night I think I experienced some contractions. I have been induced with both girls and have never experienced contractions other than in the hospital, if that makes any sense. So it made me a little nervous but i think its common. I don't really have much to write about. I have just been pretty busy doing different things. My awesome friends have been keeping me busy. The girls were excited to see that Dee hung the pictures they colored for him up on his locker (I think thats what it is) They thought that was pretty cool. Madalyn wants to make more for him. They both miss him and LOVE it when they get to talk to him. I miss him also and I get soo excited when he calls. Well, I think I will go to bed now. I love you all!!

My Feelings!!

So I'm gonna write a little bit about how I'm doing. I am doing really good. Just a few things and I'm not even sure if this will make sense but it does to me.  So I have been feeling a little lonely...I have the best husband in the world. When he was home I was so used to him telling me that he loved me and just little things he would say day to day. Text messages he would send to make me feel good. Well since he has been gone I of course don't get to talk to him very often, And if I do its usually only minutes. I KNOW that it's not his fault. He is very busy and has other things on his mind.  But the truth is I miss him and I don't feel missed. I know that he does it is just how I have been feeling. But then last night it was like he knew I was kinda down cause outta no where he sends a text that said "I love you". That totally made my night and day I felt soo much better. It's kinda silly. I'm just so used to hearing those comforting words and when you don't hear that as much it makes you kinda sad. So thank you Dee!! I love you! =) And you make my heart happy!!  I was so excited to send him his first package today. Even though its not much I am excited!

One week down

Well we have officially made it through the first week. HOORAY! I have kept myself and the girls plenty busy. Saturday night one of my very good friends Melissa came over and we had pizza and movie night for the girls and her and I made hair bows. It was fun to just talk about things. I'm grateful for friends like her. Overall things have been good. Other than I'm ready to not be pregnant anymore!! I have been sooo uncomfortable with this pregnancy than i ever remember with the other 2. EVERYTHING hurts!! :) One of our good friends Joel painted Coopers room this last weekend and I love it! Thanks Joel!!! Today when I picked Madie up from Ericas house she seemed sad and we asked her whats wrong and she said that she cried today because she misses dad! :( This is our first bad day (which is a good thing considering). I asked her if anyone helped her when she was sad and she said Whitney did. Whitney said "Do you want to call your dad?" Madalyn replied "we can't call him, we have to wait for him to call us" It broke my heart but it was all good cause i said Hey lets go get a ice cream cone and everything was all better. Tonight we went to Gymnastics. The girls love going to gymnastics it keeps them busy and a way to get some energy out.  I miss you Dee and love you so so much!!

Kinley makes me laugh

So we were in the store today and I was just looking around to kill time. I was by the little girls section at shopko and passed by the bras for girls. Kinley then says to me " Mom, I really wish I had boobies" WHAT??!! Boy are we in trouble Dee!! Hmm...I said to her "someday you will." I then hear a lady behind us laughing she says "Oh Boy, she is cute" I'm like ya she is...Lol! She says some funny things.  On Tues. after Dee's plane had taken off we were all just walking to our cars not really saying much and leave it to kinners to break the ice...She says "Dad is CRAZY" Ha Ha if i recall Ron (Dee's dad) says "Not as crazy as some of us." It was funny.

The First Day

Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my husband. I have been through a deployment before but you can never prepare enough for that dreaded day. I tried my hardest to be strong for Dee and for my girls. It was hard to hold back the tears. Throughout the day I would go into these crying spells and was in some sort of daze. Today I woke up and I felt a lot better. I got to work and My boss came up to me and gave me a hug and asked "How are you doing?" That meant soo much to me. I was amazed how many customers knew that Dee had left and cared about how I was doing.
  My main priority for this next year is to make this deployment as easy as i can for the kids. I need to keep them busy and be there for them. They are the ones that matter. I need to wipe there tears and let them know that it's ok to miss daddy and to be sad sometimes. But also teach them to be strong and confident that we can do this and everything will be ok. I tell them that there daddy loves them and doesn't want them to be sad.  As for myself, I haven't really figured that out yet. We will be having our precious baby boy in November and that will keep me plenty busy. I'm just going to take it one day at a time. I love my hubby so much and he is such a good example of what a Husband, Father, Leader and Soldier really is. He is what keeps me going. I am so proud of the man he is.