2 months down

We have made it 2 months...I must say it has gone by fast. Dee is finally where he needs to be. I feel like we can finally get a roll on things now. Talking to him he seems to be in good spirits. I know he is under a lot of pressure but nothing he can't handle. With a new baby in the house I have been really busy. We haven't done much of anything exciting except for getting used to having 3 kids. Cooper was having some problems with gaining weight the first 2 weeks. We just kept trying some different things and last wed. we took him in to get weighed and he was finally at his birth weight. It was such a relief!! Kudos to the woman out there who nurse...it is very hard and at times I wanted to throw my hands up and quite. But I am so glad I stuck with it! However I am mostly pumping but hey whatever works for me I guess. Cooper is such a good baby, thank goodness. We have enjoyed him. The other day Cooper was sitting in his bouncy chair and Madalyn sat in front of him and read 3 books to him. She has been such a good big sister I am so grateful for all of her help. Its funny cause Madie is the motherly sister I think because she is older and Kinley is the one that entertains him with her singing or she holds little animals up to him and talks or sings to him. Kinley had a really hard time at first with him. She would cry and whine a lot and she seemed distant but she has gotten used to everything and is her normal self. Madalyn has adjusted surprisingly well. It has been so nice to be able to be home with my kids. I have noticed such a difference with her schooling. It seems like it has just clicked. She is still slow at math or counting money and reading but at least she gets how to figure out the answer and she LOVES to read! I need to take her to get a library card.  I really need to go to bed,but  i thought that i would update since its been awhile. With the holidays coming up I know it will be hard without Dee but we will keep on going and will get through it.

Our Baby Boy!!

Yesterday Oct.27 2010 at 12:40 pm our baby boy Cooper arrived...The poor little guy had a rough time with some minor complications but other than that he is absolutely PERFECT! He is such a sweet little boy sleeps a lot but they all do at that age. He weighed 7lbs 7 oz and is 19 1/4 inches long. He is beautiful.
   It was sooo hard for me not to have Dee there with me, He is my partner. I thought to myself, how am I going to do this without him. I tried to talk to him on the phone but even that was impossible. I am soo happy though he got to listen as his baby boy let out his first little cry...I wonder what Dee was thinking, feeling. I still haven't talked to him about what that was like. As for me, I couldn't have asked for a better support team help me through.  We are now into our second day/night here and things are good! Dee was supposed to surprise me but he spilled the beans to me not even 5 minutes into our conversation yesterday morning. He gets to come home!!! Yay!!! I was sooo happy when he told me. I cant wait to see him and for him to meet our son. I love you Dee!  Cooper and I and of course the girls can't wait until we get to see you for a few days.

Could be any day???!!!

Today I went to my doctors apt. and he checked me to see if we were still on track for wed. Oct. 27. Well he said little Coopers head is in good position and I'm a 2 or 3....I am assuming he is talking about dilated. Yay!! This does make me a little nervous considering in the past I have been 4 or 5 and haven't felt a thing. I can't wait for out little mans arrival. I am sooo excited!! It could be anytime and that makes me nervous. I am prepared though . That is all i really have to write about tonight.

Lost.......

Today was sooo busy but overall a really good day for us. This is my day in a nut shell.
             First I got up at 6:30 am got showered and ready for the . Then got the girls up and ready. I got Madalyn to school by 8:20 killed some time took Kinley to school at 9:00. I had a doctor appt. at 9:45 which lasted until about 10:40 and the doctor only saw me about a total of 5 min. Then picked Kinley up at 11:00. Went to Target to find Madalyn a coat for the winter. Its soooo cute! Roxy had a hair appt. at Peaches at 12:00 which i forgot about until 12:10 so I was late....I HATE being late for anything. Then I picked Madie up from school at 12:45. We headed to LEO's place and met Korrie and her girls. This was by far the best part of my day :) It was nice to chit chat about how bad my memory really is Lol!! and just to relax and the girls play for awhile. Then we headed to parent teacher conf. at 4:00 until about 5:00. Then went to get our hair done by my awesome cousin who made us HOMEMADE pizza for dinner, which was sooo yummy by the way. and  finally got home about 8:00pm.
            So I want to talk about Madalyn's conferance tonight. Her teacher is concerned that madie has dyslexia....ughh. She has struggled soo hard in school. As her mom this breaks my heart....I can see in her eyes how frustrated she is that she can't do her math or is a slow reader, having a hard time telling time,counting money, spelling etc...This is where I'm at a loss of what to do. I work 3 days a week, so on tues and thur are the only days we can start homework at a decent hour (before 6:00) She has spelling every night. Now what you may not understand is it takes ALL night to practice spelling. She is supposed to read 20 min every night. By the time spelling is done it is 8:00 sometimes 8:30 at night. Besides that when we are done with spelling she is tired and doesn't want to read. (Can't say I blame her) 2 hrs doing spelling is a long time for a 7 yr. old. So I'm supposed to practice math with her and all this other stuff. I am doing my best to keep them busy while Dee is gone. We are doing gymnastics 1 night a week so they can get out and be active. I have started worrying not only about Madie keeping her head afloat in school but now I worry Kinley will ultimatly be the one affected. My attention either goes to baby or Madalyn. So where does Kinley get attention??? Im feeling discouraged and I am just wishing there was somw way I could stay home with all of my babies....because I am lost on what to do. I am just going to have to figure it out.

Getting Anxious

So yesterday I went to my doctor appt. and we talked about a day to get induced. We have decided to plan for Oct. 27. Yay! I have been soooo uncomfortable.  I'm feeling happy, excited, nervous, and sad. Sad ,because Dee can't be here to see our baby boy. Overall I'm VERY excited though. Last night I think I experienced some contractions. I have been induced with both girls and have never experienced contractions other than in the hospital, if that makes any sense. So it made me a little nervous but i think its common. I don't really have much to write about. I have just been pretty busy doing different things. My awesome friends have been keeping me busy. The girls were excited to see that Dee hung the pictures they colored for him up on his locker (I think thats what it is) They thought that was pretty cool. Madalyn wants to make more for him. They both miss him and LOVE it when they get to talk to him. I miss him also and I get soo excited when he calls. Well, I think I will go to bed now. I love you all!!

My Feelings!!

So I'm gonna write a little bit about how I'm doing. I am doing really good. Just a few things and I'm not even sure if this will make sense but it does to me.  So I have been feeling a little lonely...I have the best husband in the world. When he was home I was so used to him telling me that he loved me and just little things he would say day to day. Text messages he would send to make me feel good. Well since he has been gone I of course don't get to talk to him very often, And if I do its usually only minutes. I KNOW that it's not his fault. He is very busy and has other things on his mind.  But the truth is I miss him and I don't feel missed. I know that he does it is just how I have been feeling. But then last night it was like he knew I was kinda down cause outta no where he sends a text that said "I love you". That totally made my night and day I felt soo much better. It's kinda silly. I'm just so used to hearing those comforting words and when you don't hear that as much it makes you kinda sad. So thank you Dee!! I love you! =) And you make my heart happy!!  I was so excited to send him his first package today. Even though its not much I am excited!

One week down

Well we have officially made it through the first week. HOORAY! I have kept myself and the girls plenty busy. Saturday night one of my very good friends Melissa came over and we had pizza and movie night for the girls and her and I made hair bows. It was fun to just talk about things. I'm grateful for friends like her. Overall things have been good. Other than I'm ready to not be pregnant anymore!! I have been sooo uncomfortable with this pregnancy than i ever remember with the other 2. EVERYTHING hurts!! :) One of our good friends Joel painted Coopers room this last weekend and I love it! Thanks Joel!!! Today when I picked Madie up from Ericas house she seemed sad and we asked her whats wrong and she said that she cried today because she misses dad! :( This is our first bad day (which is a good thing considering). I asked her if anyone helped her when she was sad and she said Whitney did. Whitney said "Do you want to call your dad?" Madalyn replied "we can't call him, we have to wait for him to call us" It broke my heart but it was all good cause i said Hey lets go get a ice cream cone and everything was all better. Tonight we went to Gymnastics. The girls love going to gymnastics it keeps them busy and a way to get some energy out.  I miss you Dee and love you so so much!!

Kinley makes me laugh

So we were in the store today and I was just looking around to kill time. I was by the little girls section at shopko and passed by the bras for girls. Kinley then says to me " Mom, I really wish I had boobies" WHAT??!! Boy are we in trouble Dee!! Hmm...I said to her "someday you will." I then hear a lady behind us laughing she says "Oh Boy, she is cute" I'm like ya she is...Lol! She says some funny things.  On Tues. after Dee's plane had taken off we were all just walking to our cars not really saying much and leave it to kinners to break the ice...She says "Dad is CRAZY" Ha Ha if i recall Ron (Dee's dad) says "Not as crazy as some of us." It was funny.

The First Day

Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my husband. I have been through a deployment before but you can never prepare enough for that dreaded day. I tried my hardest to be strong for Dee and for my girls. It was hard to hold back the tears. Throughout the day I would go into these crying spells and was in some sort of daze. Today I woke up and I felt a lot better. I got to work and My boss came up to me and gave me a hug and asked "How are you doing?" That meant soo much to me. I was amazed how many customers knew that Dee had left and cared about how I was doing.
  My main priority for this next year is to make this deployment as easy as i can for the kids. I need to keep them busy and be there for them. They are the ones that matter. I need to wipe there tears and let them know that it's ok to miss daddy and to be sad sometimes. But also teach them to be strong and confident that we can do this and everything will be ok. I tell them that there daddy loves them and doesn't want them to be sad.  As for myself, I haven't really figured that out yet. We will be having our precious baby boy in November and that will keep me plenty busy. I'm just going to take it one day at a time. I love my hubby so much and he is such a good example of what a Husband, Father, Leader and Soldier really is. He is what keeps me going. I am so proud of the man he is.